No sex watch...a year is approaching

I can't believe that fact that I'm approaching my 40 year mark, and I still have the shittiest sex life I could ever imagine. I had more sexual contact with my high-school girlfriend and we didn't have intercourse. Fucking lame times 10!

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I'm not going to give in...

As much as I want to, I am not going to give in. When the question is finally asked:"Why are still sleeping the couch?" And my answer(s) is/are given: I am not going to sleep in the same bed as someone that obviously doesn't want to have anything to do with me physically. That doesn't just include sex, if you aren't going to proactively (is that a word?) make the effort to be affectionate or intimate then you can sleep by yourself. I'm past eating my pride on this one. Massaging your back isn't enough.

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No particular rants lately

It's been about a week without any rants, or complaints or internal dialogs made external. I'm sure one will pop out soon. Lucky you!

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One track mind.

So I made a mistake with my son this weekend. I felt he was working the "go into bed" thing and actually he was afraid because it was too dark. So of course he gets upset and mom comes to the rescue. And of course my wife goes off on me how she's so tired of how I interact with the kids. She's uses an example of my Stepmom and brings up the whole song and dance related with her. She also states that the lack of whatever that happens with the kids is 90% of the issue she has with me and how she doesn't want to work on the marriage because of that.
What's funny is that how I feel I am treated (or not treated) by her is exactly the same way as her example of my stepmom.
For me it's like there is this glass that is rubbed with vaseline, and it obscures everything else. Most of the time I'm like what the fuck. As soon as a I get home, everything is clouded with the fact that she can't expend one ounce of energy for any kind of affection. If it wasn't for me there wouldn't be any contact at all.
I could be wrong, but I think that a huge problem is that for her the kids are everything. Granted they are just about the most important part of our lives but, and it's a big but, they aren't everything in our lives. It's no wonder we haven't had an intimate relationship since our daughter was born. Once that happened all other concerns got pushed to the side.
Wake up and realize that!

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Sex Watch weekend: none!

Wait you didn't have sex again for the umpteenth weekend in a row? That's crazy!
Actually it's fucking lame. I'm good enough to be used as a masseuse but as a sexual partner. Getting physically close and intimate (not just sex) is as easy as getting intimate with a sea urchin. I still can't wait for when it gets brought up. "Well we would have some intimacy if you slept in bed with me." My response: "I only sleep where I'm wanted, and it's obvious to me that I'm not wanted in the bedroom, you can barely tolerate any affection as it is."
Uncontented with a capital T!

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Driving issues

Seriously, is it that hard to drive? The controls are pretty simple left-right, forward-backward. Try being assertive when coming onto the freeway from an on-ramp. As in, get up to speed and join the Flow of traffic. Your goal should be not to impede the aforementioned flow. If you're going to turn, turn! Try taking your foot off the gas, instead of using your brake.

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Catchphrase...

Here's the catchphrase I want to say all the time now: Booo-Fucking-Hooo!

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